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P33ish080: January 1st, 2020 - Resolutions, Decisions, Or Commitments?


I know we're all woke now and everyone is quick now with the "it's just another day" scoff, but still: there is a shift in the air and not many of us can deny the feeling that comes with the change in the calendar, so...

Happy New Year, buddies!!

I feel different. I feel light. And then I feel heavy. Maybe because I got another milestone in twelve short weeks, and the next half decade too; or maybe because every single thing in the last decade have legit pruned me for this new one, dunno. But the past ten years have been like a long ass collage of experiences, and something about 2019 just sort of brought me full circle. And here we are: quarter to forty and only just officially qualified as "been there, dunnit." Everything.

I'll not lie: I consciously fuckedupingly prayerfully prepared for this year like I wish I had for the last one and I just feel...ready.

Or not.

And oh, yes, I did a lot of emotional purging; like, there is no one in my life now renting an unnecessary flat in my head: everyone that I needed to say something to heard it from me, LOL. No, not fight. Never fight. Just expressions. Speaking up. Cleaning house. Setting free. Letting go. Of even decade old junk; it's time.

So! Resolutions, decisions or commitments; which did you make or are you making?

Me I think resolutions, by their mere tagging, just beg to be broken. They just always come off flimsy-ish, dunno. So I learnt long ago to not bother with them; they are the same for me every year anyway: no more Coke/Pepsi, a gym registration; brrrrh! But I have since stopped kidding myself. Let body tell me please, my orgasms will still manifest. 😁

Decisions are different, though. And they're more of a show-versus-tell ish as they tend to involve changes we're ready to make: be better parents, bosses, lovers, friends, children, colleagues; treat people better, handle money more responsibly, create alternate sources of incomes, etc. So yes, decisions are definitely my thing. And my relationships, I just know it in my bones, are going to be better for my decisions this year. So yes, Amamize, I promised I will be there and I will--unless you wander off; Temi, I will always be a call/text away; Kimmy, I will never not want to listen to you, so yes, buzz me anytime -- only a good dicking will make me not respond pronto; and you, Olamiposi, these eyes will always see you.
I am decided to be the definition of solid for my friends this year (I do think I've always been solid though), so if I feel like I can put my feet down and be real, then yes, I am standing with you. That's my decision: better friendship, better listening, zero judgement--as always.

Committments, however, are a little more personal. And for some reason, we tend to not even need to make a social media list of them because these are stuff we owe our own self so they're more of stuff we note in our journal, or on a sticky note pasted on our refridgerator door, or typed out in our to-do app and maybe apportioned alarms/reminders. They are that personal: more water, weight loss/gain, spirituality, better faith walk, anxiety management, compassion, reinvented work ethic, etc; all stuff that make us feel good inside.

And speaking of work: if you are an entrepreneur or a small business owner, I want you to please follow me HERE and the blog @page33ish on twitter ASAP. I wanna support your growing business this year, even if it's as basic as retweeting/reposting your business tweets/posts. The blog is also on Instagram @page33ish. Just...tag, tag, tag! We'll RT. And we'll repost. For FREE! Let's do this for each other, yeah?

And ooohhh if you have a BLOG, then please drop your blog link in the comments section. I am thinking of activating the 'Blogs I follow' feature and I am more than happy to have yours on my roll for 33ish visitors to see. So drop your link? You already know mine.

See? Connect, help, grow!

Let's leverage on one another!!

Moving on now...

The bulk of my year is going to be dedicated to my own personal commitments and I'm going to share the most important one: my commitment to not getting hurt; and this is like my new year pledge. And oh God help me, because I will hurt myself to not get hurt this year, for real 😭😭😭. I will not take less than I deserve from anyone or put myself on hold for anyone's feel-good purposes; unless I gave birth to you of course. I will not be disrespected in any way or shape or form, no. I will not make anyone a priority who makes me just one of many options, and I most certainly will not be standing in anyone's queue waiting to be called; I will not be auditioning for any frigging one for any role. I will not be going to places or hanging out with people where I'm just tolerated or not welcome. I will not, and this is super important, be putting myself in embarrassing situations in the name of ANYTHING and I will not be spending more than the accidental minute in any situation or with anyone who makes me feel sad or inadequate or "worth just this much."

All in all, if it wounds me, or tampers with my emotional safety/security, or waters down my magic, or requires me to suppress my feelings or voice or needs or expectations just so I don't lose it; then I won't be wanting it, muchos gracias. So yes, I am committed to my joie de vivre, and to people with whom I find it.

I am committed to feeling safe this year.

And seen to.

Even if it's by me.

I have more commitments, and they're basically all wrapped around my mental/emotional wellbeing. So hello, meditation. How you doing mindfulness? Oh, you came too, bitchiness?

Haha!

I wanna ask that you share some of your own commitments or decisions...or even resolutions with me if you can. Do you mind?

P.S: I honestly didn't realize how hard it was for non-blogger people to comment on the blog until the Christmas giveaway and I don't know, I still think it's a phone/browser thing. But hey, add me on WhatsApp via https://wa.me/2348025470127 and connect on all our social media platforms so when there's another giveaway, we'll be sure it happens where the most people can participate and benefit.

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Cheers to a creative year, buddies.

I look forward to doing good together. 

Love,
Talitha.

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